where are you?

so this is your downfall? I thought you were supposed to be strong,
Ithought u were the light in the face of all wrong, what happened to your spirit?
did you give in to the pressures? you forgot the sun was behind all those clouds?
yes you did, you've let the bottom fall out, you're scraping your knuckles on rock bottom,
but what happened to rising above it? what happened to having nerves of steel?
is this going to be your downfall? when things get hard you turn to this madness and call it your "escape"? I remember when you never even thought about escaping, the idea of fleeing never crossed your mind. you were a FIGHTER. and you had big plans. but now it seems you have been broken, and everything you used to stand for has disappeared,
everything you used to fight against has turned into your fears,
what happened to you? I honestly do not know who are anymore.
I know nostalgia doesn't bring progress, but i miss the old you.

I wish you would come back...