Loved This Week

This week was a strange week for me, I dealt with two trainees, I've taken three finals, had a ride along from Cincinatti, and a day full of patients that reminded me of my mother...

The best part of my week had to be on Wednesday when I walked into Jamba Juice, ordered a regular Razzmataz with daily vitamin boost and cinnamon apple pretzel, told the lady behind the counter my name and she said "That is a beautiful name, truly beautiful. I Hope you have a wonderful day!" haha, that truly made my day, an excellent end to a frustrating shift.

In my company we basically work 10 and 24 hour shifts, and on Monday while working my 10, we had six patients, all were female, four reminded me of my mother, one reminded me of my aunty, and it was definitely hard not to shed a tear, especially when two of them cried in the back of the rig with me... The fourth patient reminded me of my aunt, I was the driver but I was tired of seeing my family members in these patients, I don't know what was going on with me, but I was feeling pretty down. So how did I turn it around? well, I didn't actually turn it arround, we ran into another rig after one of our calls, two of the better guys in the company were finishing up a call at the same hospital, and they didn't do anything special, they were just being their normal cheerful selves, and that was all I needed. It's amazing how the smallest things can make the biggest difference...

Oh yea, and it was EMS Week, we got breakfast, lunch, and dinner served to us throughout our shifts (yea, I like my company) and rootbeer floats on friday...

Hope everyone had a good week, especially everybody in my extended EMS family.

Be Safe, Have Fun, Live Life

where are you?

so this is your downfall? I thought you were supposed to be strong,
Ithought u were the light in the face of all wrong, what happened to your spirit?
did you give in to the pressures? you forgot the sun was behind all those clouds?
yes you did, you've let the bottom fall out, you're scraping your knuckles on rock bottom,
but what happened to rising above it? what happened to having nerves of steel?
is this going to be your downfall? when things get hard you turn to this madness and call it your "escape"? I remember when you never even thought about escaping, the idea of fleeing never crossed your mind. you were a FIGHTER. and you had big plans. but now it seems you have been broken, and everything you used to stand for has disappeared,
everything you used to fight against has turned into your fears,
what happened to you? I honestly do not know who are anymore.
I know nostalgia doesn't bring progress, but i miss the old you.

I wish you would come back...